Wednesday, January 25, 2012

It's apparent I'm suppressing my fears about school, because my dreams are definitely manifesting those fears. Last night was a doozie. I was at fashion week, and I was watching a show. I then had to go pick  up 2 Swiss Balls for Pat (one of my best friends). I kept having to leave the show to help other people, and eventually I got yelled at for having 2 purple Swiss Balls at a fashion show. My two favorite professors were sitting across from me, looking slightly ridiculous in their leather suits (like traditional business suits, but in leather), and they just looked disappointed. So finally, I have to leave and I end up with Pat in a grungy little apartment with nothing around, but dust, gross apt, and brown grass.

So I'm thinking fear.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

65 days. Yikes.

65 Days until school starts. 29 until I fly out there to tour.

So far, my list has changed 14,000 times about what I need out there, but I got the top 2 items.


Basically at this point, I'm trying to focus on what I need. My mother thinks that's a TV, but I love my big ghetto tv. I have 2 pairs of corduroy pants (one gray brown, one wine), the new jeans, a maxi skirt,  a black jersey skirt, a houndstooth mini, a black mini, and 2 pairs of black  legging pants. I have a few dresses. I have enough shoes to last forever. I have enough movies to last forever, but I think I'm going to take Wii with me, and have that. 

Basically at this point I'm thinking all I really need is a couple of sketchbooks and my iPhone. Let's get going! Oh, my iPhone will be held in THIS:  

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

After the Depressing Post from Earlier...

I will say I think I'm dealing with waiting for LA poorly. I'm so ready for this challenge, yet it's still 72 days away. It's both insanely close and very far away, hence that last post. So with this one, I'm really going to try and focus on the happy. Coming up, I have my new iPhone, which I already have a designer case for. I think I'm going to be able to afford the tattoo I really want. I get to go back-to-school shopping, which I love. I'm going back to the gym regularly, so that's good. I need to focus on that, because when I get out there, it'll be really important to use the gym to get rid of the stress. But most importantly I need to really need to go find some inspiration. But, here's the tattoo I think I'm going to get... All from the brilliant mind of Marc Jacobs.

After My Weekend Off

I managed to have a 4 day weekend. I don't know why, but all this did was make me more restless to get out of Denver. I don't know that L.A. is going to be the place that I love the most (probably not, Edinburgh will probably hold that for a long time), but I now understand why I have to leave. I need something that challenges me. It's like Aaron always says, some people can settle for a job that is okay, because they really love something else about where they're at. We're not those people.

And I'm not slamming anyone who can settle for a job that isn't what they've always dreamed of, but what I AM saying is that I will be miserable if I don't get into a field that fits who I am. I am incredibly restless on my days off, because I cannot wait to get out there. I cannot wait to be in the middle of something much more face-paced, and to be frank, I cannot wait to not be able to slow down. I am sick of life being slow, of it being hard to get into an inspiring area to help with creativity. Instead, right now, I feel like I'm struggling, because I am only getting creativity from movies and magazines. I feel like I'm at my best when I'm surrounded by culture and creativity, and the  more I think about it, I am stuck thinking that Colorado's culture is just... It's not helping.

So more and more I think about everything, I am probably hindering myself by allowing myself to perceive Colorado they way I do, but also, I understand that I am working toward leaving my fear of mediocrity and becoming boring behind.

Okay, no more crazy water for me.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Celeb Stalking

Here's the thing. I am going to need some cheap entertainment out in L.A. So, I've devised a game to help. We're calling it celeb stalking, but there's no approaching or harassing celebs. It's a scavenger hunt of certain celebs, where we see if we can spot them. Maybe even take a photo with the phone, but overall, leave them alone. So, I'm compiling a list of celebs most scavenge-worthy, beginning with the most important:

1. Alexander Skarsgard. If this shocks you, you don't know me.
2. Ryan Gosling. Is he really as hot as he looks?
3. Emma Stone.
4. Mila Kunis.
5. Axl Rose.
6. Any of the Hills stars (because they're just asking for it.)
7. Any of the rest of the cast from True Blood.
8. Any of the cast from Gossip Girl.
9. Marc Jacobs.
10. Lindsey Lohan. Why wouldn't I want to see a train wreck?

I highly doubt I'll go out of my way to see any celebs, but the idea is fun. Okay, I may have to walk by The Ivy, just to see how insane it is.

Thursday, January 12, 2012


I've been putting together a collection. It's really about keeping sketching, getting better at figures, etc. So here's some sketches. I'm also posting them on FB.

Monday, January 9, 2012

It's time I ended this hiatus. I've asked myself what I want this blog to be, to become, and even, if I should keep it or not. And, ultimately, I've decided to keep it. What I am going to do is make it more focused. Instead of trying to help everyone, or post things I like, it's going to become more. This is all about the next 448 days of my life. It's about my journey from Denver to L.A. to where ever I end up after FIDM. The next year of my life is going to be the most crazy and exciting time of my life. So this is going to be my mission. From today until I'm done with school, I am going to be updating on prepping for school (getting in shape, making some garments, sketching, etc), what's happening in L.A., and what's going to happen beyond. So here's my little return letter, with a little assignment I gave myself.

Here are the items of clothing I'd like to find before I leave in 83 days.
1. Black or navy shorts
2. Teal tights
3. A blazer
4. One or two cardigans- neither gray or black
5. One more pair of jeans
6. One more pair of sandals
7. A few more tank tops
8. Another maxi skirt
9. Skirts
10. Wedges

Okay, maybe this is unattainable, but on top of that, I need to clean out my closet. Like, completely clean out. So goals set.